I have this stupid problem where I love being the center of attention and being in front of my class, but I suck at talking to large groups of people and staying coherent and not looking like a loser. so if i could just sit in the front of the room and watch everyone watching me, that’d be nice. or give me a script.
check it before you wreck it. please.
when you realize that you are completely indifferent to the person you are with, it is a good time to move on.
i feel like the people around me are constantly underestimating my desire to be better than everyone. like, i honestly don’t want to be good. i want to be the best.
i have a couple very conservatively straight friends and every time i spend over an hour with them, i pretend like i am trying to seduce them. one of my greatest goals in life is to maintain their fears that i might not be joking.
thing i did today: ate an entire box of chicken in a biscuit.
today was a success.
i hate being in love. i hate how the seeing or the not-seeing of a single person can either brighten or dim my life experiences. no one should make me feel like i just walked into oz, because when they aren’t there everything is just black and white. i hate love because it makes me loathe absences and abhor my own lonely silence that i typically find so soothing. i want my heart to stop living in my throat and to go back into that husk that cages my other more sensible organs. a heart unshackled loses its peace of mind. a heart unshackled is hardly free.